I got this feeling

2009-10-03T15:41:00.000+08:00

cheebswax.tumblr.com ^^

this is the kind of reaction your girlfriend makes when you told her you've had an std in bed

2009-10-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

they're hereeeeeeeeeeeeee. i have two more to go.

i just realised, i should have made up my mind @ one go. then can pay less! what the fuck.

love like you do

2009-10-02T20:17:00.004+08:00

firstly, a really HUGE

SORRYYYYY

to SHALYN YONG aka SHALSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
i'm sucha bad friend i know. i'm so sorry :( won't happen again girl!
really!

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry !!! :(

sigh. darn it.

to spoil my day, i already reached khatib when jay loh called me to return the aircon remote wtf. i forgot about it, & i cabbed back to amk with ryan & all that. fuckshit. but of course this boy is the sweetest thing ever ^^

i love you, nayr.

dog goes woof, so god goes foow? lolwut.

2009-10-02T20:04:00.002+08:00

this is clar-ball. :) i feel like seriously just piiiiiinching his chubby cheeks! geram!

mrs minho. lolwut. she's going to korea to find him this year. (yeah in a few million years!) hehe.

see! i'm touching her boobsies! HEHEHE.

face sucks, but you get the message here. loveeeeeee this baby.

this one also. this aleesha ^^ so cuteeeeeeeeszx.

bestfrienddddd?

ok sums up my day in school where we skipped an hour of lessons. haha. mingyi's guitar game in his phone rocks. i hate the games in my phone. full of crap.

2009-10-01T17:18:00.001+08:00

nikita's friendswanna kena sepak from me yknow!!!! >:(

earthquaaaake

2009-09-30T18:23:00.001+08:00

why everyone say got tremors/mini-earthquake?

zi xuan also say her house shaking O_O

laaaaa why my house there don't have??? :S

i'd like to make myself believe

2009-09-30T17:54:00.003+08:00

1) Getting report books tomorrow.
2) Very scared.
3) Very happy at the same time.

Yknow, Mrs Singh said that maybe CCA would be counted as a subject. if it is, i'd get 11 for my L1R4. hmmmmm like so.... I-HOPE-THAT-HAPPENS kinda feeling :/

hmmm today's air-con day.

nikita made this. SO CUTE!!!! :

hehehehe.

anyway, i studied today! HAHA with nayr.

ok, love my hair & need to study more now. BYEEEEEE! ^^

bestfriend's study date

2009-09-29T19:33:00.002+08:00

today's study date with ash was da bombbbbbb! he brought me to icekimo. fucking good ice-cream & atmosphere. then after much consideration, we went to macs for an early dinner & then home. yay i got new place to drag people to. & ash taught me more chem, so i guess it was productive after all.

not to mention, the stories we exchanged. guess we both have the same thinking & probably the same things disgusts us. like certain desperations, if you get what i mean. hehe i'm not telling you. because me & ash, we're evil & we keep it that way.

so, evil = won't tell you = fuck off.

YAY :)

i won't stop until this boy is mine

2009-09-28T21:46:00.004+08:00

i'm so thankful to God, that life's piecing up again slowly. from friends, to girlfriends to my only. everything. thank You, God. :) i know You exist. haha. ah well.

i think today taught us a few things. i'm sure it taught us both.
i have to learn how to love this boy properly.
i love you ryan :)

study date with ashyddiq tomorrow! YAY A SAINT ANDREW GUY IS TUTORING ME! LOL.

there's nothing surgery can do when i break your little heart in two

2009-09-27T23:23:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry, i'm not gonna give up my obsession. you can very well hate nabil moo for all i care.

F1 cars are sexy.

bestfriend's birthday, get wasted

2009-09-27T13:08:00.005+08:00

still owe this boy his present. happy birthday! :)

if i could describe the event in five words, i'd say -
drinking, pool, h2h, headache, puke. ^^

love ashyddiq!

& abang & atiqah. hehe. ash's gonna treat me next week. best or what! hehehe.

ANYWAY, MUST WATCH! LOVE GAGAAAAA.

cbk

2009-09-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

i wanna waste my life away right now.

>:(

2009-09-26T19:11:00.001+08:00

my mum read the letter christina gave to me a few days ago & she thinks i'm mistreating ryan. oh please, that boy can take good care of himself -,-

now why am i pissed off?

i really need to take a holiday.

no, wait.

make that a holiday with nabil moo.

that's more like it.

:'(

2009-09-26T12:05:00.000+08:00

dreams do come true eh. hmmmm. :'(

from my homie to my only

2009-09-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

i have four things to share today.

firstly, me & shalyn decided to get engaged but since we're like lesbians, we have to choose between male & female.

HAHA OK. so i'm the lady & she's the macho man.

thus, i'm now engaged to SHALYN YONG! :D

& there's the drama in everything else. :) hehehe. ^^

then, my primary school friend, fabian, chatted with me. he said...

OMAGOURD I'M SKINNIER & NOT TO MENTION, LESBIAN!

ecstatic

2009-09-25T22:27:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling pretty good now because my aunt, who i've always took as my godmother, is officially now my godmother under my mother's consent. :) she used to only be nikita's godma & now she's mine too! hurray!

i successfully went to study for three days in a row this week & i'm feeling damn good about it. finally, i've realised to importance & felt the pressure. took so much to kick my ass. i remember mimi jie telling me to study at the start of the year, & it was like in one ear & out the other. now it's like, holy shit i should've listened. :(

first i went with alicia & christina. then the next day was with alicia, dennis & ming yi. you would know if you read my tweets. but it was good. went to lan jiao shop with them. (ok lah LJS. it's dennis' idea.) & i think i'm understanding more chemistry. can you believe it, some chapters, i open to a page & i go what the fuck is this shit about?! i didn't even know what the heck redox was. how lousy lousy lousy lousy lousy.

now my motivation, maybe most of you have seen, is my drawing of nabil moo, with a speaking bubble, asking me to study. i'll upload it one day. it's so cute & so motivational! do it all for nabil nabil nabil nabil nabil! HAHA. (don't worry, i still know that R exists ok.)

i'll repeat what i said earlier. ash called me up (he's my best cousin on the other side) & asked where i was. by then, i was already home. he asked me to go study then bring me to the ice-cream place where he told me he'd treat me at. i was so excited then i realised i had to follow mum to the cancer center! bummer. so we postponed it.

me: how come you suddenly call me?
him: 'cus if i don't call, you say i never call you then you say wait one year also i never call.

HAHAHA SO CUTE THIS BUDAK.

his birthday's on monday. we're celebrating it tomorrow! ^^ & i haven't bloody gotten his present. hmmmmmm. i don't know what he'd like. rugby ball? HAHA. rugby player what lol. -,- one thing i hate about him is that he's in SAS. next year he'll be going to SAJC. jealous ah, then? >:(

alright nevermind. today, matthew killed a lizard, cremated it, & shook it in green tea. disgusting. clarence screamed like a girl. so cute that ball ball. he's gonna open a balloon factory in the future. did you hear? :)

two is better than one.

whatcha say

2009-09-25T14:40:00.001+08:00

i'm so angry because today ashyddiq finally called me to ask me to study &&& bring me to that ice-cream place he wants to treat me at!!!

BUT

I

CAN'T

FUCKING

GO! :(

sigh. next week next week next weeek!

cb i want ismfof t-shirt & album

2009-09-21T22:14:00.001+08:00

Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it,
Baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin you can do about it
It's been too long, this is too strong
Cause we belong here
Baby, we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other

i think i'll be alright

2009-09-21T17:41:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry ryan.
fine, i'll stop. & yes.

i do love you so much.

doubt me, but i do.

MY EYESSSSSSSS.

2009-09-21T11:21:00.003+08:00

i must be one of the most kentalszxsz people because i so fast post about raya lol.

bestfriend among all. LOL.

freaking suay, hari raya kena sore eye. one side only some more bloody hell pffffffft.

me: you know what i think about when i woke up?
mum: what?
me: that kuih. *points* & my mooncake that is in the freezer.
mum: hmmmmm.
me: can i eat now?
mum: ok. selamat berkurus.

:(

Selamat Hari Raya! ^^

2009-09-20T09:41:00.001+08:00

now tell me it's so cute. :D
now i kinda miss them. lolllll ok selamat hari raya. :)

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-09-20T00:22:00.003+08:00

some really really disgust me.

right, alicia? ^^

anyway, shahari & his sisters' video so cuteeee!

i burn red.

2009-09-19T23:53:00.002+08:00

firstly, pavithira baby, i hope everything is fine. i love you so so so much ok! ^^ call me lah pig. hehehe.

next, i don't know why i'm so agitated. i really need a proper life -,- i think these past few weeks have brought nothing good. :( never mind, i'm so looking forward to next week's study dates with ming yi, dennis & alicia! probly the other girlfriends too. yay, i'm actually going to study & ming yi has agreed to tutor me on A math. HAHA! (well mum asked me to ask him, so i did. hopefully it'll pull up my grades.)

shit i don't feel like i deserve to spend raya tomorrow because.... well some of you know. if you ask people like clarence & chua zhi ming then they'll probably bomb you with stuff like, yah she menses one month. -,- i feel so useless all of a sudden.

& anyway i feel so angry. i hate people who piss me off. & i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars. i hate liars.

i don't know if you're lying or not, but get this.

i hate liars.

ok bye i eat goreng pisang ^^

white horse.

2009-09-19T11:43:00.000+08:00

the audio is quite sucky though. very soft :( but it took me a good three hours to convert & upload. whattabitch.

_|_

2009-09-18T19:59:00.004+08:00

this is some funny shit. read the question, then look at chua zhi ming's answer.

HALAL SYMBOL.

lol. yeah lets all put halal symbols on pork & gelatine. hehehehehe ^^ funny boy.

ok now i need your help. tell me, do i look better with a straight fringe/bangs (i don't like that word) or a side part? LOL WTF I'M ASKING.

just tell me. message me, call me, twit to me, whichever. thanks! :D

babygirls like no othaaaa.

2009-09-18T17:59:00.002+08:00

hello. i feel like i have tons to complain about, thou it's only a few things that i really need to say out here. lol for the simple reason i feel like it, that's all. well let's start with:

1) i feel pissed off, or a better word to be used would be upset. because i feel people take me for granted sometimes. i may be mean & all when i'm angry & stuff, & i may have shifted my attention to other people instead of you, but that doesn't mean i don't care about you. & when i show it, you take it for granted then when you don't need me anymore, you push me aside & give me shit faces. oh c'mon, i've tried. seems like my concern to you is better off flushed down the toilet. & don't say you hate me or my boyfriend or my friends now, because i tried to care for you when you needed somebody, but you took it for granted. so, i rest my case here. :)

2) i find it real funny when people try too hard to lie. & i find it even funnier when i find out how pathetic the lies really are? ok ok, let's take an example. this person tells you, he has a girlfriend. & you're like, ok sure. blah blah~ then one day you stumble upon a profile with this girl's photo. so obviously, you'd just click. then you become friends & you just talk & all & suddenly! LO & BEHOLD! this girl's attached to somebody else & there's nothing about you that is visible in her profile/blog/whatnots. & then you slowly start to giggle then you tell somebody, that person starts to giggle. & in the end you two burst out laughing. oh GOD this is fucking hilarious!!! :)

today wasn't the best of all days, i would say. a few things got me down but i'd want to share my prelim grades with you, if i calculated properly. *cross fingers* i managed a b3 for my english i think, which i'm upset over since i got an a2 for my mid-year :( my math also a b3, ftw! no distinction for that either. here's the shocker, i got a b4 for my humans thanks to social studies which i managed a third place in class(?) i surprisingly also passed my F&N?! totally unexpected, i swear. got a c5 though. one more mark to up a grade lah fuck. science & A math, as expected, a pretty F9. hehehehe. overall, i can only get a 17 for my L1R4. wtf i'm not happy :,(

O LEVELS YOU BITCH I'M GONNA TAKE YOU DOWN >:(

did i tell you the holidays made me soul search abit & i guess i'm gonna change some of my ways though, i may have already issued fixed impressions of me. LOL, first impressions of course. but i still don't give a fuck because my girls still love me, or at least they say they do. hehe. today's weather needed a tight slap. chris, alicia & i skipped humans lesson to emo at the study area. ended up spinning coins to hit each other's, & in the end everyone was happy. of course, we're each others' sunshines, no? :)

i'm glad we have our spats here & there. it makes us more interesting & it really just makes me love you more.

half-hearted intimacy

2009-09-13T23:13:00.003+08:00

NABIL MOO ACCEPTED MY FRIEND REQUEST.

i am hyperventilating. i've got access to his photos. i feel like crying i have no idea why O_o

went to a recital today with my family & him. cute little kiddies! quite boring though. i was half asleep halfway & he was yawning. hahahaha, but it was ok. went to swiss culture <333333333 that was the best part.

mummy bought ryan these shoes. DAMN IT I DIDN'T GET. but i think he needs the shoes more than i do. nice right?! ;D ok if you see these on him, just know that i buy one, ok? hehe ^^ see how much i love my boyfriend?!

ok. just to make things clear, i may be crazy over nabil moo. but my heart's only for ryan teo wee nam, my boyfriend. yes i'm very sweet lol.

ok will be away for a week. check my tweets, bitches ^^

i'm so hyped. tomorrow i can finally see my girls!

oh where my hair at?

2009-09-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

today was a hell full of shit. HAHA, laughing at random videos & stuff. it was boring, overall, but still good 'cus i got alot of my computer. my restrictions are coming soon. i can smell it :( then when i'm stripped off my computer previledges, his restrictions will be off. bloody hell, then he'll CR CR CR all the way like wtmf is CR all about?! >:( (not a happy woman.)

i just looooove this photo lol.
hehe look here:

yes i cut my hair when i got home. by myself. it's really thin. but i'm not letting you see till school re-opens! HEHEHEHE.

tomorrow i'm watching a concert with my family & him at victoria theatre. bloody hell have to wear formal -,- i should wear my shorts & cropped tee underneath.

neh too hot -,- nevermind one day only. tahan. tahaaaan.

find one more on youtube :)

2009-09-12T18:11:00.003+08:00

our response:

LOLWUT

2009-09-12T17:09:00.003+08:00

THIS IS SO WTF.

first thing tiq said when it ended was,

looks like _________! so ugly!!!

then i was like, WTF THAT WAS WHAT I WAS THINKINGGGGG!

HAHAHAHAHA ^^ IF YOU KNOW JUST SHUT UP OK? HEHE!

ok aku dengan tiq skarang tgh busted. hehehehehe. will post more shitz.

atiqah tengah sedih :( i pun nak ikot.

2009-09-12T15:36:00.001+08:00

nabil, you never fail to make my day ^^ total cuteness.

ok i'm feeling good now playing emo schmemo songs on my acoustic! :D

but the nuns are fucking watching

2009-09-12T00:41:00.002+08:00

leeeeeza ♥♥♥

i'm ecstatic.

i got my nabil moo kinda shirt woohoo! :D i even drew on it.

ok today was good. but i'm fucking pissed with him now i swear.

1. i bought him a tee.
2. i really liked the tee.
3. it was new, with plastic & all.
4. he itchy fingers go & soak.
5. now the bloody shirt is PINK.
6. i'm like WTF.
7. i'm angry.
8. i have nothing to vent it on at this kind of time.

WHAT THE FUCK I AM VERY PISSED I'M SERIOUS. >:(

2009-09-11T11:23:00.002+08:00

syazlan went back to new jersey today. there were no tears, 'cus he's coming back for NS soon lol. however i miss his sister & brother who's still over there. hmmmm. hoping to see them this november? :)

i did something so bad today. i woke up & saw no message on my phone so i decided to text him.

me: PLEASE MESSAGE ME WHEN YOU WAKE UP! URGENT!
(i think i sent that twice or three times.)
him: (when he woke up) *call* *call* *call*
me: *ignore*~
me: it's very urgent but please don't tell anyone.
him: what's wrong? what is it?!
me: i miss you. hehehehehehehehehe.
him: my heart just stopped. i thought your maid killed someone and is holding your family hostage or what. you scared the shit out of me baby.

HAHAHAHA. yes of course if you had sucha bitch for a maid like mine, your boyfriend would be well worried for you like that HAHA. but i feel mean nonetheless, but whatever. i've done it so many times with him & he still falls for it lol.

ok to penin & bugis with leeza now. maybe i'll meet the birthday boy later, dennis. happy birthday you boob. ;D

soaring and flying

2009-09-10T17:56:00.002+08:00

i'm watching HSM! he hates HSM. but i think the show's soooo sweeeeeeeet. like who climbs up to your balcony to sing to you?! AHHHHHHHHHHH SO SWEET!

today my feet had blisters because i wore my covered shoes without socks. babylove lent me his slippers while he carried my shoes & walked barefooted from the bus stop to my home. (ok i initiated a bit) but i think it's really sweet hehehehehe ^^

maybe we could use somebody

2009-09-09T22:00:00.003+08:00

i want to be able to tell you that you irritate the living shit out of me but i can't bring myself to. why nicole why? inner bitch stuck somewhere. lolwut. i think this will only ring two bells to some.

great fun.
♥ kwisteena & aleeshia! ♥

i hate fighting. grrrrrr. :( i'm a very stubborn person.

she doesn't need the happiness from me. she can get it from you guys hehe.
shhhh.

i don't like pavithira. :(

my boys boys boys boys boys

2009-09-09T11:06:00.002+08:00

nicole: this song is about a girl who's posessive over her boyfriend. then she ties her boyfriend up and never lets him go.
him: if i were your bestfriend, i'd tell you you're like that.
nicole: haha. eh wait, what's that supposed to mean?
him: you're possessive?
nicole: WTF YOU ARE TOO.
him: i know.

love these two people. they came all the way to dhoby ghaut for me. haha, the things they do for me lol. i'm sucha loser, i know. but anyway, happy advanced birthday, dennis ^^ & i loveeeeeee ming yi's hair :D

sleepy & very cranky

2009-09-08T13:36:00.001+08:00

seriously wtf. his first paper is from 8-9, then next paper's @ 2pm. -,- wao. i feel so tired. i woke up @ nine! :(

angry

2009-09-08T13:15:00.003+08:00

i'm so angry

because i want to go out

but daddy said no. i don't care i'm going

out tomorrow with my

girlfriends even if it

bloody kills me.

fuck the holidays, i say.

:S

2009-09-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

i studied math. i taught math. i ~~love~~still hate math.

:)

hahahahahahaha

2009-09-06T14:09:00.003+08:00

nicole: you see, their mother & father bring them go butter factory. (rants about elder cousins.)
mum: then?
nicole: you bring me lah! not like i go with my friends. i go with mummy.
mum: hey. aku bawak kau pergi masjid! kau duduk bersila sane. what butter factory.

HAHAHAHA :(

bloody funny secret

2009-09-06T11:52:00.003+08:00

i woke up to a sweet 'sorry' message that made me feel like it was going to be a good day. :) i like it when one makes these kinda no-guarantee-but-i'll-try-my-best kind of promises. because firstly, it's something that you can actually guarantee. :/ next, you won't shatter someone else when it doesn't go the way you want it to. so thank you very much & let yesterday be the past.

i was browsing through the internet with tiq the other day, & we made an amazing discovery!!! see, tiq & i share secrets right? & there's this deep secret which only she knows about. she even came all the way to AMK to get a closer look at this secret! & well we talk about it sometimes, joke about it, get serious about it, but ok it's still a secret.

so we went online, & this secret's already very branched out. we decided to do something for fun, like well maybe i don't know, join tagged? HEHE! yes & i think it was just fate. like a force actually pushing me to sign on to that site which i find no point in. for fun, actually. for the heck of it. so we were using our own laptops on tagged when suddenly, LO & BEHOLD! we came across something related to that secret! i was like, tiq, i knew this looked familiar! so i clicked on it. ADD.

hmm, so waited a few hours & finally, ADDED! & what i saw next made my jaw drop so low. HAHA! & we did some searching & all to discover that the supposed secret, is probly a fake! & tiq was just going, she damn pretty lah sial. then i was like, uh-huuuuuh! that was the first thing that nudged my belief in that secret. i was like, cannot be laaaah. we were both convinced that the person in the secret was just trying to get me jealous or to prove she had a much much better life than me, which didn't really affect me 'cus i had doubt from the start anyway.

but whatever me & tiq did is enough to convince me, that this big 'secret' thingy is just so....

fucking funny.

HAHA. stop it already. k lah nicole, please go live your own life. HAHA!

nobody nobody but you

2009-09-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

clarke quay flea market today with tiq & eza. <3 them to bits.

miss the girls. next week must go out ok. :) christina can throw her phone away. & computer. talk to her must wait so long. until i twiitszx dhen euuhs wna answerrrr! BOO :(

his N level starts on monday. good luck baby boy. though we probly won't be spending much time together for now, don't forget me k. you're my strength as much as i'm yours.

i love you.

hehe

2009-09-04T16:47:00.001+08:00

hehe tiq says she's jealous of me & ryan lol. he's not answering my messages. i must relax! haha. or else i'll start fucken everyone who speaks to me lol. ^^ ^^ ^^

nicole is calm & she's happy.

humour's so shallow, if it was any shallower, it would be dry

2009-09-04T15:20:00.002+08:00

take that, you one hell of a bitch :D ♥♥♥!

i bit him this hard. but you know. yeah you know.. love hurts. HAHA CRAP. i still ♥ you with all my heart, baby. & though i'm so angry 'cus you haven't called me, i know you love me as much if not more too. HAHA WTF AM I TALKING MAN LOL.

anyway, tiq's over! woohooo. gonna go to city hall later then over to ~~gay~~geylang for more baju raya man! :D hehe. then at night, we're gonna enjoy go hallelujah & talk nonsense on the phone. she has 1837848291 people to call you know! i only got my one & only but still, he's all i need before i go to bed. right? *blush*

lolwut this so funny.

i am so pissed like, &%^#$@! ok who am i kidding, since when i censor. -,- i'm one of the few who has to return to school during the sept holidays to catch up with my additional maths. k like i said, e math is a bloody joyride lah, but A math's just fucked up. i was like, in a state of euphoria when he announced that there wasn't gonna be any class during the holidays.

how the fuck did i know,
he would personally come to my table to tell me that i'm one of the few he wants to work with during the holidays? i just forced a smile & a nod but oh boy if i wasn't in school, i would already ~~chokeslammed~~bitchslap him. oh yes i feel like seriously bitchslapping him. c'mon, there's a reason why i didn't get anything for him during teacher's day. like~ zzz. i don't like it that he's always poking his abnormal nose into my situations & whatever i'm in. like fuck, let me live my life!? sure, i enjoy his encouraging words & whatnots, & of course i like the fact he chose me as CP, which isn't working out too well right now, i think he even regrets lol. but still! fuck it. i don't know what you think of me, but what i know is, i know what i'm doing with my life. so fuck your thoughts, whatever they are, alright?

SHIT THIS DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT I HAVE TO RETURN TO THAT MF SCHOOL I THOUGHT I COULD ESCAPE FOR A PURE WHOLE WEEK. CHEEBAI. (ming yi not helping manszxs wth.)

i need to take a holiday.

little mermaid

2009-09-02T19:50:00.001+08:00

benjamin is so cute.

anyway,
happy birthday ming yi.

NR love you. hehe.

science practical - huh what?

2009-09-02T18:32:00.003+08:00

hehe tomorrow i only need to be in school @ 11.15pm! that's 'cus my practical exam is in the third shift! lucky lucky me :) & another thing is, pavi's gonna be in the same shift! don't know bout the other girls though. *cross fingers* pavi you bitch better meet me tomorrow on time. hehe love! :D

my cousin haikal posted this & i thought i'd post it here. it's so embarrassing but i think she was probably just really angry @ that point of time, for her to just scream in the train & all. & really SCREEECH actually. & she was crying real hard also. hmm well. poor thing. kau kat mane! kau kat mane! cakaaaap! sape pompuan tu lah pukimak! & her friend wasn't much help also. i would've shut her mouth with my hands. or butt. whichever. & drag her out of the train when it stopped! haha. oh minah. but ok lah kesian also 'cus she probly got cheated on eh? :( hmm. well even if i was angry with baby, i would wait until i got out of the station & somewhere quiet (like my room -,-) then ~~scream~~use sarcasm. HEHE! so clever lol. -,- or! maybe i'd be screaming if he cheated on me, if i heard that girl's voice in the background. haha no lah, i where got so crazy ah? :)

note: i still hate stomp. pussies.

anyway, two posts back i think, i said it's like a weekend? turns out it wasn't. daddy was in a good mood today & when i asked whether ryan could come he was like, "okaaay". lol.

♥♥♥♥♥!!!!

hehe so cute like small boy lol.

YAY GONNA BUKA FRIED RICE.

potong babat matsalleh, masak di kuali

2009-09-02T12:23:00.002+08:00

hey monday's candles is quite a sad song. hmm but i love the arrangement of the song. i think i know what i'm gonna do today. i'm gonna look for the tabs of it then play it. :)

anyway, he did meet me yesterday. & he also went to break fast with me. i told him, i'll pick from your food ok? then he bought some creamy pasta thing. so i asked him why he chose that (when i already know the answer). well if you're gonna pick at my food, i might as well buy something you like. being irritating, i asked, how you know i like ah? haha. :)

geylang was cool shit. ok, not really. the rain was so irritating, but we ended up walking in it anyway. just one thing, we weren't exactly dressed for geylang. hahaha, so we cut the idea halfway & went to bugis instead. hehe!

so pretty. so slim. grrr. i wanna potong my fats & give you. :( well thanks for spending a day with me. see you on friday! :D

he came over for awhile. he talked to mum from a distance 'cus she was too lazy to go get dressed properly to see him lol. ^^

last night was so cold. too cold, actually. i wish my house had a fireplace. :( anyway why must today be wednesday when school ends at TWO?! :( i'll have to wait until at least three o'clock for entertainment. hmm.

we cannot call glue already

2009-09-01T09:20:00.002+08:00

i'm off to geylang while he's off to his cousin's. hmm wonder if i'm gonna buka there. never really broke my fast @ geylang before. oh well. i'll be dishing out pretty raya stuff while he'll probly be gaming. it's like one day off each other. like a weekend :(

oh bitch i just remembered, i'm not schooling tomorrow 'cus its MT prelims. see what i tell you! like a weekend.

adek playing spongebob beside me

2009-08-31T18:03:00.001+08:00

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'Cus you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm ok
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, I love you harder so

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal the heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine

Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, just take my hand.

i can't think straight but i'm ok

2009-08-31T16:25:00.000+08:00

i am in love with hey monday's 6 months. go listen, it's in my playlist by the side :)

since today's the eve of teacher's day, he's gone to his primary school. which leaves me to be at home & extremely bored. this year noone's going back to mine, & my teacher's sick anyway - according to my sister. i feel very weak now actually, but i don't know what to do about it. it doesn't help that he can't message/call me. :(

i found my black lipstic! *bliss* i tried it on & i got kind of sucked into the past when i was 14 years old & mad about the goth & satanic culture. yes, i once believed in satan & i almost worshipped him fully, but at that point of time, i could count on someone. & this someone pulled me out of it ^^ hehe. then i remember me wearing my black lipstic out getting weird stares & even people chatting me up. well, that's all in the past. i think i'd wear it out again one day. hmm why not tomorrow @ geylang? hahaha, nonsense. wait people mengumpat then batal their puasa. hehe.

i think i'm developing a fever! :S my temperature's getting warmer. or maybe it's just 'cus it's raining outside. i swear, my head feels very heavy. but i'm too stubborn to care. i'd rather sit here & entertain myself. ~~or else i'll miss him too much & make my headache even worse.~~

dennis says i'm lousy. hmmmm maybe i am lol. shahari says my blog has moodswings. i agree! haha just like how i have moodswings almost everyday. i find myself very irritating at times. i wonder how he can stand me. hmm well. anyway i found nabil moo's twitter. well hopefully, that IS him. haha. yeah you can't spell slaughter without laughter. :D

i just complained to humphrey but he went offline! GRRRRAAAARRRHHHH!

kk my headache is getting worse. i reached home @ 2.15pm today. now it's 4.40pm & he asks, why reach home never call me? yeah, hmm. oh, i'm not home. when you left me @ 2pm, i went on a helicopter & i'm now skydiving so i'm not home yet.

haha.

fer sure maybe fer sure not fer sure eh fer sure bomb

2009-08-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

malaysia was cracka-lackin'!

i cannot think of a title.

2009-08-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

shao beng has wasted approx. 3 minutes of his time to check whether my blog can be viewed in IE & MF. haha, thank you beng! :D haha.

spanking saturday once again with tiq. woohoooo! went to suntec then adil told me don't forget to whack the mats there. but he claims to be a mat too lol. funny shit lah this adil.

phone quality sucks big time.

i find my father very cute. & we've been calling him andy pandy since don't know when & we just happened to notice this very cute merry-go-round with andy pandy! HAHAHAHA.

oooh me love my bangs ^^

geylang on tuesday with tiq. woohoooo! :D

(if you find my blog messed up, do tell me k. :) )

a way to make me smile

2009-08-29T16:25:00.000+08:00

i got re-directed to this video & i found it hilarious lol.

i re-played about five times in a row! lol.

are you preparing to draw me

2009-08-29T11:35:00.000+08:00

i came across this.

He who loves the more is the inferior and must suffer.
- Thomas Mann

hmmmm.

i removed the song. there's no point. fine by me if you wanna use ignore therapy.

on a happier note, ming yi complimented one of my photos, so i was like,

you mean i don't look like that in real life?!?!

hahaha. my self esteem is high beyond your wildest imaginations.

its like you wanna pee in your pants

2009-08-28T18:31:00.000+08:00

i was looking through facebook, which i don't usually do. just clearing photos i disliked & all when i came across a photo that i was tagged for, by shahari. it was a photo of my valentine's day card to him last last year i think. i still have the picture of it in my mind since two years back! lollllll. yes it's 14 year old standard. hehe. but i remember cutting the sponge paper up until my hands hurt. HAHAHA OMG. i wonder if he still has it. i think it's so cute because it was when my handwriting wasn't all cursive & nice. it was when i was contented with even the ugliest things!

well guess that's why i don't wanna lose shahari as my friend. he's the one who accepted me though i was probly so immature & had very fugly hair last time. lolllll.

did i mention i liked you alot

2009-08-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry i cannot resist the temptation to post this up here. parts of ryan's compo for his prelims which he did well for. :D

obviously you can't read. it says

there are two people i cherish most in my life. one of them is my father and the other is my girlfriend. (blah blah blah)

i like this part: when we first got together, i was in a state of euphoria.

can you believe it, i asked what euphoria meant? pah nevermind. pavithira also don't know. hehe. love that bitch.

k just wanted to tell you that i blushed. muahahaha. it's not everyday your boyfriend writes about you in his exam.

horseflies in your mouth

2009-08-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

went over to bbg pavi's house the other day along with pretty christina. lol. short hours but great fun. watched her puberty ceremony vid thingy. so pretty la, now so matured. nyehahaha. pavi claims i'm not funny. that's sad. :(

oklah pavithira i know you love me ok. :)

overdued photos with atiqahqahqahqahqah! :D

heheee! tomorrow going her house buka ^^ lol.

zixuan took this panorama photo of me today. lol. i didn't know sucha function existed. boo. -,- but yeah i went home very early today. two o'clock worszxsz! :D

now for the worthless blabbering that will only mean something to some of you.

today after school, he offered to come all the way to amk library to fetch me. then i told him its ok cus school was quite far from there, but he insisted so zi xuan said, aiyah nevermind la, he long legs very fast. we short legs lazy. ok not very funny when i write it here but at that moment it was, so i just laughed & laughed & forgot about trying to force him to meet me @ the mrt station instead. hehe.

i came back very early today & i'm proud of myself! but i'm hungry.

i chatted with mingyi earlier & he was going crazy 'cus he kept typing wrong things that meant a totally different thing from what he was trying to say. lol so funny. & he asked me a very cute question! hahaha. i'm also contemplating even more to skip monday's stupid aces day. thanks to him la. i'm dreaming for my 5-consecutive-days holiday! hahaha which will happen if i skip aces day. BECAUSE! it's the weekends, then monday is aces, tuesday is a school holiday & wednesday is MT prelims. 5 straight days waking up late & waiting for 7pm! woohooooo! ._____.

you see the thing about putting the last paper a few days AFTER the second last paper, is that you'll grow out quickly of the study mood. i have FNN paper next FRIDAY. like, let's say i've got the 5 day holiday. then thursday is practical, then it's like 6 happy days to enjoy before FNN, a big paper some more. got mood study meh? no way. stupid lah timetable. in between got teachers day some more where teachers shove the exam scripts under their table then go party until very happy.

yay i now berry happy because ming yi say after O level we're all gonna do things together as a band. i should learn how to be more guy. so i don't feel a disconnection sometimes. lolwut -,- hehe ♥♥♥ NR :)

i'll talk more later. my fingers tired.

you can't spell slaughter without laughter

2009-08-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

oh i love my ryan :)

what's the dillio? - mest

2009-08-23T15:55:00.001+08:00

sorry for contradictions, but i'm feeling ae-okay now! hahaha, thing is, i got nobody to thank for it! LOL. i have to thank a photo though, which deserves more than a thank you but i don't know how to! LOL. here it is.

HEHEHEHE! how can that not make you smile? it's hilariously cute, i think. hahahaha. & i feel better. lol. & oh, also thanks to nigahiga's youtube vids that get me laughing. (and hungry thanks to the portebello mushroom vid.)

but i'm fine. :D
fuck the rest of it.

can i meet nabil moo please

2009-08-23T12:28:00.000+08:00

i can tell you truthfully that i really miss having fun. like, serious fun without a care about what exam you're having tomorrow or how many days to this whole big exam that gets you a certificate. i read somewhere, though i forgot where, about someone wondering if it was worth it to study ten years for a certificate. i forgot who though. but still, there's my point. yeah we need an education & all, but it's depriving us of fun. & people may say that oh you can have your fun later or some other thing to get you even more depressed. sure, i could have dropped out of school because of my low interest in flipping textbooks & bringing home a bunch of exercise books for homework. but, i stayed on. but i wasn't fully forced to do it. instead, i think i half wanted to be in school.

i don't know. but what i know is, i was going through my thumbdrive & i could actually feel all the fun through the photos i've found. & guess what?

i don't feel it now!

:( it all feels so far away. like, i'm not going out much already & i'm also studying at home. yes, i admit, i study at home when i'm bored. & that's not me! i want to go out, go out, go out & have fun & go crazy & everything. where's all the fun? that's what i asked myself when i went through my photos. like, i'll show you some i miss so much.

sigh. i feel the fun draining out of me. maybe the phrase would be, i don't feel much love anymore. hahahaha.

mm. & why the fuck am i feeling this way!

anyway i had a very bad nightmare a few nights ago, & a weird flashback last night. i think i'm going crazy. hmmm. but christina's post really did some work to make me smile a little. it's her august 22nd post, here. now that's a good friend :)

i need conversations.

yknw what would be the best escape for me now?

top of the hill. pretty sweet-smelling flowers. my guitar & amplifier. fantasies of NM. chips & dips. drinking pepsi. just beautiful sceneries. i'll just stay there & roll in my alone-happiness until i silently pass on & i won't forget to snap photographs with a camera so that when the day comes that someone happens to find it, there'll be happy photos for them to remember me by.

i don't know which is better, all my true friends there, or none at all? haha. oh well.

i feel better now. i have no idea how that helped me :)

how am i supposed to choose which one i belong to

2009-08-22T18:03:00.000+08:00

true friends

▪advise you truthfully without hurting your feelings
▪do something about your problems
▪stand up for you whenever possible
▪stands firmly for you when you fall
▪attend your concert although they hate your genre
▪skip stuff for you
▪make you happy
▪make you smile
▪make you cry

are always there for you

blame it on the corporate skyscrapers in the clouds

2009-08-22T17:51:00.000+08:00

i don't like it when things go wrong. but i have a solution to my troubles sometimes.

i've got tons. not letting you get any more than that. :b

too late for your motherfucking horse to come 'round

2009-08-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

i see no tags & less traffic! i must be sucha bore. LOL. plus i can't post on weekdays. it has driven me to feel very lazy to open up & type crap in this space. hmm, something new? i am addicted to things that rhyme with orange by ISMFOF. fucking good song, plus nabil moo(!) is the cutest thing! lol.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, PAVITHIRA :D

helped her cover up lotsa shits, so funny. hahaha. hope you enjoyed your birthday you bitch ;)

hahahaha, hope you liked my clay present too. i'm not really good at art, but i managed to come up with it in an hour +.

hehe. i find it quite cute though. but oh well, finally sixteen. i'll be waiting for the day you pull school stuff out of you know where. LOL!

hmmm, have you all met my bestfriend 2? hahaha he claims he has three bestfriends. ______, ______ & bestfriend two, me! LOL. here is my bestfriend 2:

his name is chua wei quan. he's the vainest bestfriend i've ever had. lol. i wanna see you chop off that fringe of yours! hehehe, yeah over his dead body. lol he's kinda emo too. although there's obviously no reason to be. but nevermind. he's annoying at times, but that's what spices up friendship, don't you think? HAHA. love my bestfriend 2.

some thing written by chua zhi ming. (lol like all chua ah.)

some thing by alicia during recess. hehe.

& some thing by me. i feel it's quite complete though, but i think i just feel that because i'm a lazy backside. HAHA.

let me tell you something wrong i did on wednesday. see, we were waiting for our mother tongue results & it was so full of suspense as you looked at people's expressions from their results. you see screaming people, you see crying people, you see people with uncertain expressions.

someone: hey, do you have a tissue?
akmal: nah. (passes tissue)
me: hmm, got people cry.
akmal: we can open shop sell tissue paper.
me: hahaha yalor, sure get alot of money.
akmal: yah, & detergent.
me: huh for what?
akmal: for people who wanna commit suicide.

HAHAHA. do you get it? lol. so i thought the malay students had to wait for Mdm N to come, 'cus she wasn't there. but in the end, it was just form teacher. so i saw mdm loke smile then she said out my result, i screamed, WHAT THE FUCK! & she hit me & asked me to shhhhhh. HAHAHA -,-

ok it was a mistake, but me? A2? i'm a B3/B4 student. so i thanked god for it. :) & well, i'm not re-taking. but i got a feeling that those who retake can get A1 cus of moderation. grrr. nvm, i'm quite happy with my 2. hahaha :)

i got er, i don't know what's the right word, on my english examination. see, i wear highlighted contacts to school cus the shop just HAD to run out of black on that day. nobody in school said anything, not even the teachers. so i went for my O LEVEL oral & the teacher asked if i was wearing coloured contacts. then she told me sternly that i wasn't supposed to. then i was like, errr ok. & the whole way through she didn't smile at me at all. -,- but she smiled at everyone else. what, biased ah?

whatever, i think i did my best. if she wants to fault me for my bloody CONTACT LENSES, i have nothing to say. i'm just pissed that she had to give me that attitude because i was wearing coloured lenses. must be the bloody bright light. -,- i don't understand what's wrong anyway. it's all lenses, right? i could wear red for all you people care. it's just lenses. -,- ah piss ah chit.

oh well. it's over. may i never in my life see her again. lol. or i will (insert threat here.)

hmmm, look what i got for my monthsary ^^

well, happy 6th month, love.

xoxo.

well the tables do turn, where will you be

2009-08-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

today, i played catching with my kid cousins & ashyddiq the st. andrews boy. we perspired like hell - can collect & water plants. hahahaha, i almost forget how to play ali bomb. but i had fun today i guess. hehe!

tomorrow is the start of another hell week. wish me the best of luck. prelims on friday. oral on tuesday. best or what!?!?!

spare the goodbyes

2009-08-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

& i got my skin changed again! this, is to kill time.

did you catch this, btw? ;

hmm. anyway, spanking saturday once again. oh prelims, will you please not take them away?

2009-08-16T12:17:00.001+08:00

testing :)